Needless to say, everything in is flux right now. I am in mourning the loss of my fantasy of an ideal. I am on the mend, thankfully, and should be right as rain in a week or two. I can't help but be sad when the Utopia begins to slip away. Or more specifically, my idea of Utopia.
I've been reading different quotes all morning to find one I wanted to add to my profile here. I find so much inspiration in the words of others.
I am finding myself feeling even more in tune and in love. I am reminded every single day of how loved and appreciated I am and how truly lucky I am to have found this so early on in my life. I realize that nothing matters except for this one thing. This one thing is so amazing that it sustains me, supports me, holds me close and gives me enough space to grow and flourish. I do not need anything but what I have. I feel as though, after months of feeling incomplete and empty, I am finally back to where I should be. My heart is full.
Without my permission or approval, it seems my life has decided to simplify itself. My life has a mind of its own.
I know there is a good reason this is happening and I am looking forward to finding out what it is. I spent so long bored that the excitement and drama was a welcome change. I can't deny the fact that I am probably better without the drama, however I will miss the excitement. I am hoping of finding more ways to continue living a more exciting life.
I will have a lot occupying myself once the kids go back to school because Eddie will be at work and I will be plunging head first into school.
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