Its 5am and I can't sleep. I tossed and turned all night. Several things are breaking my heart.

More than likely Eddie's stay in Iraq is being extended until December. I know that I'm being a cry baby about it, because honestly I'm doing ok and it could, and has been much worse. I just miss him so much. He is my best friend, my soul mate and all that mushy stuff. Having him so far away, to put it bluntly, just sucks. I honestly thought, this time, we'd get to spend our anniversary together. After all, it was our tenth this year.

My boys are starting school this year. Pretty soon, Ryan will be 6, and Avery, 9, and they are in first, and fourth grade respectively. I get very nostalgic at the beginning of every school year and start leafing through baby pictures and with each one I realize how big they've gotten. Part of me wishes they could stay small forever.

I do have some things to look forward to. This weekend, Lori and I are going out to Cripple Creek (the place out here where you can gamble) because they are having an ceremony honoring soldiers here that were nominated for Soldier of the year. We have a hotel room and although our Saturday is booked solid with events, it should be a wonderful time.

My mom is coming for a visit on the 24th. I really enjoy having her here, especially since I can't get to New Jersey to see her.

I can not wait for all this army shit to be over with. I want our lives back. I don't want to be owned by the government any more. I am always thankful for the things that this life has given us, and I know times like this are the price we have to pay, but I am ready to move on, and I know Eddie is too. Keep your eyes open for more pictures. Eddie is unloading our camera and I'll be getting a bunch of new ones.