Avery turned 10 yesterday. He is the most amazing young man I have ever met.
Sometimes I feel like I haven't accomplished anything since I graduated high school. I feel like I took the easy way out by getting married and having babies and not working. When I look at my children and the amazing little people they are turning out to be, it makes me feel like I have done something after all. They are both so intelligent both emotionally and scholastically. They both have a great sense of humor and often make me laugh until my sides split. They often say things to me that make my jaw drop or a tear streak down my cheek.
All I need is my family. I could be car-less, money-less and living in a cardboard box and I'd be happy that the people I love and care about are with me. I know that isn't what life has in store for me though. I am looking forward to owning our own house and being financially prosperous. I am looking forward to leaving this place and going back home.
I often say that I am a lucky bitch and I believe that with every bit of my being.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Current mood:
confused So... it seems that we aren't meant to stay in Colorado after all. I have such mixed emotions about this. I am very excited to be closer to my family and finally give our boys the chance to bond with their grandparents and Aunts and the rest of the family. All of our family is out there. I am very sad to be leaving our Colorado family behind. None of us chose this (meaning any of us that are cohabitating) more our hand was forced. I can't go into detail here but feel free to email me and ask if you are interested. It really isn't that interesting but the gist of it is that we really don't have a choice.
We were planning on visiting NJ for Christmas and now it seems that we'll be extending our visit. Eddie has started to apply for jobs in the area. We are aiming to be no more than an hour from Trenton. That gives us quite a radius to work with and with Eddie's qualifications he should not have a problem finding a job. It should actually work out perfectly because we'll still be getting paid by the army until the beginning of Feb. and our taxes will be back that month as well.
The very bittersweet thing is that we are coming full circle. We left my parents house to live in Army housing and we are going right back to where we started. The difference now is that Eddie has great training and we won't have to be there for long.
I've been in a state of brain fog for the last 3 weeks and it will probably continue until we get to NJ. I nearly forgot Avery's birthday was this Saturday simply because I had no idea what the date was. I barely have an idea of what day it is.
I haven't been out of the State of Colorado since July 2006. I just never realized that the first time I left would be for good.
I am happy, sad, nervous, excited, depressed, and elated. I am SO tired of saying good bye.
We were planning on visiting NJ for Christmas and now it seems that we'll be extending our visit. Eddie has started to apply for jobs in the area. We are aiming to be no more than an hour from Trenton. That gives us quite a radius to work with and with Eddie's qualifications he should not have a problem finding a job. It should actually work out perfectly because we'll still be getting paid by the army until the beginning of Feb. and our taxes will be back that month as well.
The very bittersweet thing is that we are coming full circle. We left my parents house to live in Army housing and we are going right back to where we started. The difference now is that Eddie has great training and we won't have to be there for long.
I've been in a state of brain fog for the last 3 weeks and it will probably continue until we get to NJ. I nearly forgot Avery's birthday was this Saturday simply because I had no idea what the date was. I barely have an idea of what day it is.
I haven't been out of the State of Colorado since July 2006. I just never realized that the first time I left would be for good.
I am happy, sad, nervous, excited, depressed, and elated. I am SO tired of saying good bye.
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