saltines are delicious

So, I'm drunk.. So what :). I don't drink that often... at least I never used to but suddenly it seems I am found drinking much more than before. Well at least after I turned 21. I sure drank a lot before that but never so much since.

I am drinking a lot and sitting downstairs in the kitchen because my husband, who doesn't really drink at all has picked up a nasty habit of drinking since he's been at home from Iraq and honestly, is upstair pouting Sincbecause he got mad at me and can't remember why. And at this point I don't care because I know he is being ridiculous and I am sitting next to a package of saltines and honestly, saltines are delicious.

Since this is a protected entry, and anyone who would read it is is someone I can trust, I can be honest here, so I am just going to spill my guts while Eddie probably sleeps upstairs half waiting for me to join him. (although I can hear movement upstairs and it may, or may not be the dogs making that noise. Judging by how drunk he was a few minutes ago, I'm going to go out on a limb and guess it is the dogs because I really think he is much too drunk to be doing anything but lying in bed). I am very happy right now although I am concerned about some of the people responsible for that happiness and their own ability to find the things that make them happy and how they might actually remain in my life for a while.

I wish I could remember where I put my soda....

Soda is MIA but water is not so it will have to do for now.

Saltines are still delicious

Eddie is still upstairs and most likely sleeping in a drunken state in our room and part of me wants to go join him and part of me does not want to indulge in that kind of drunken behavior. I'm half wondering if he'll wonder where I am and come join me or if he'll just sleep upstairs until tomorrow. If history repeats itself (not necessarily the drunken part but every other part), he'll remain upstairs.

I am honestly ok if this isn't that coherant. If its not, I am sure you trusted few will uinderstand.

I am so tired. I am exhausted. Shit. If we had a couch right now I would totally crash out on it and teach someone... who shall remain nameless....a lesson about running off upstairs and sleep my own ass on the couch. Unforch we are couchless until tomorrow and so I will eventually have to suck it up and go upstairs. Maybe I will take a shower first. Showers always make me feel better and put things in a better perspective. Baths do the same, unless, of course they are interupted by bleary dirty looks and slammed doors ;). I don't think I will have to worry about that tonight though. I have a feeling that a shower will be a long and wonderful experience, uninterrupted and lovely.

Yep, I'll probably delete this whole thing unless when I sober up it makes me laugh. I usually laugh at my drunken rants so this might actually stay available for those who can actually read this.

Shit I am tired and I am making my move upstairs.

Good night my loves and I hope tomorrow finds you well

The first thing Ryan said when he came downstairs this morning was, "MOM, Aren't you excited today is the day that dad is coming home!"

Yes, I am.

I am even more excited that he is so excited.

Botulinum Toxin Type A

I felt much better today and got much more accomplished. I started the day off by watching half of an episode of Nip/Tuck (incidentally, if you don't watch that show, you are totally missing out).
Lori and I went to:
-walmart to pick up some water for her
-Kohls to pick up a bunch of stuff
-Lowes where I bought some spray paint for a chair I have
-Back to Walmart for greeting cards, tissue paper and a gift bag
-My very favorite chinese food place for lunch.

She dropped me off and I:
-Got a haircut
-Shopped the PX and got the right sized mini hair clips for my hair.
-Drove home to get the kids
-Went to a dr's appointment
-Found out I lost a total of 9 inches since the summer
-Had my Dr. talk me into Botox and got it.
-Told Dr. that I am going to school for my esthetics license and got offered a job when I am finished. He said I have "the right features" :)
-Got Retin A for the fine lines that remain
-Came home and found that my wax pot was COVERED in wax and got the brilliant idea to freeze it to make the wax easier to remove (it totally worked)
-Watched SVU and now Top Model and later Project Runway.

I know that all the cosmetic stuff I have done might seem very vain, but I do not care! I am going to fight aging with every last bit of collagen my body will produce and when I run out I intend on turning to science. I will never be one of those women where I tighten things so much I can't blink, but I am certainly going to do what I can to age gracefully.

I am going to turn in the afterschool care paperwork so after the holidays I can really start kicking ass in school. If I do that it is possible for me to go in at 8am and stay until 8pm. I know that sounds like a lot but if I can do that a few times, I will put a huge dent in the amount of hours I will need to complete the course.

If we end up staying in Colorado that will be lovely because I can have a career waiting for me. Colorado is a state where licensed estheticians can do all sorts of neat stuff like injectable fillers, strong chemical peels as long as a doctor "supervises" them. They don't actually have to be in the room but they just have to keep an eye on them. How cool is that!

Ok.. back to Top Model. Then PROJECT RUNWAY woot woot!

Ryan just came out of the bathroom and said "Mom! I just played thumbwretsling with an ant and I won five times."

Before that, Avery asked me what testicles were for. I told him that they produce testosterone and Sperm. He said "What is Sperm for". I said "To make babies". He said "Ooooohhhhh. I 'll never need that then."

18 days but you never can tell. Eddie was supposed to get a date for his arrival here on November 1st but they are now saying that they won't know until the plane arrives to get them. They all want to come home so I know when it is time to pack their things, they'll do it very quickly and be on their way. Eventually they'll start living in tents so the new crews can take over their rooms. I will be very excited because it will be a true sign that they are ready to return.

He might actually get to spend Thanksgiving here. How amazing would that be. I am already thankful for all the blessings in my life but that would just be incredible.

This will be his last time gone. Last time. No more army once his contract is up in Feb, 2009. If he plays his cards right, he may be out in December 2008. I am so ready to be done with the Military life.

I know I've said this a million times, but in the light of talk of Thanksgiving I thought I should say it again. Even though it has been very tough at times, I am grateful that Eddie joined the army. He has really blossomed in the last 5 years and it might not have been possible without his joining the military. We went from living with my parents and barely getting by to having everything we need. He's received training that will benefit him for a lifetime by giving him the confidence to succeed and the skills to get a very good job.

I am so very excited at the prospect of us having our lives back. We get to pick where we want to live and Eddie will be able to earn a good living with the skills he has. There is so much possibility in the days ahead.

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